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Posted 10 July 2022 - 07:19 PM
God, i know I’m screamiing into a void here, but im sad, im just so fucking sad. i just feel so so sad. life is just so hard. i need to cry tonight. i hope i can just grab my pillow tonight and ugly sob into it. after my shower tho because i have to be an adult and not show up to jury duty with greasy hair in the morning :/
im fat.
thats not why im sad, its just a small part of it. i just thought id add that.
f a t
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Posted 11 July 2022 - 05:30 PM
So my autistic ass needed to make a plan and a chart and write everything down like this. Feels much less overwhelming seeing it like this. Obviously real life isn’t going to be this neat and precise, but for now this gives me an idea and some peace of mind. I’ll probably make an updated version whenever I reach a gw.
Am I crazy?
Well, nvm don’t answer that. I already know the answer is yes, obviously.
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Posted Yesterday, 11:11 AM
I just hit 116.2 which puts me at a BMI of 18.9! That’s pretty cool 
Can’t wait to reach 18.4 next month.
Then hopefully out of the 110s in early september.
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Posted Today, 08:30 AM
115.8 today! In the 115s. I’m taking any victory I can get. Underweight still feels so far away. It could still be a couple of weeks.
I’m excited to see 114s on the scale cuz it’s just a nice number. When I was in the 120s I daydreamed about the number 114 a lot.
I’m going to keep averaging 1100 calories for the next 10 days. Hopefully I’ll see the 114s before the end of my next 10 day cycle. That’ll be 28jul.
I always sort of dread my high cal days because of food weight. I tend not to weigh myself on those days, or if i do i know the number isn’t accurate anyway. Today I’m doing 800 and tomorrow I’m doing 1400, so I still have another good morning for weighing. Hopefully I get a little lower tomorrow morning and i start the new cycle off on a good note 
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