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Posted 25 July 2022 - 09:15 AM
july 25th, 2022
day 15
weight
before: 132.0
after: 132.0
change: 0
meal plan
breakfast
1 oz spanish cheese (130)
quince paste (34)
lunch
goya chanpuru (287)
dinner
imitation crab packet (227)
total: 678
exercise plan
one hour on the track
estimated tdee: 1500
journal
tdee day checks out! i was shocked to see no gain on the scale.
tomorrow i have another speech...i still. haven't. picked. a topic. i'm not leaving the campus today until my outline is finished. i legit had a fucking dream about the speech. in my dream, i wasn't prepared at all for my speech and when they called on me i was ready to just cop that i didn't do it when suddenly on the podium was this eloquent speech outline that had my name on it. i remembered that i wrote it a year ago before i even took the class and suddenly and was like phew i'm saved, then i gave the speech and my grade was 14 out of 351. i went to the teacher and was like wtf at my failing grade, what did i do wrong? and he said nothing was wrong it was great, no one else in the class got more than a 10 out of 351.
for some reason i remember the very specific numbers even now.
ok i need to do schoolwork, as per the usual. i had so many thoughts about this whole hot girl journey yesterday but i'll have to put them into words later.
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Posted Yesterday, 09:13 PM
july 26th, 2022
day 16
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did not weigh. i brought up an amazing speech straight out my ass or even heaven somehow someway. it was about how automatic response system can lead to irrational behavior. i used the joshua bell subway experiment, the ellen langer copy machine experiment, and thinking fast and slow to pull my point together.
then i pretty much panicked in the final two hours and kept making last minute adjustments to my speech. i choked a little in the middle because of the last minute adjustments. DON'T READ, JUST SPEAK. i think i did okay though because people loved my topic.
today i ate some junk food from the school because i forgot my food AGAIN.
tomorrow let's see how much weight i gained or didn't tomorrow and carry on from there. not making judgments until i see the scale.
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Posted Today, 08:48 AM
july 27th, 2022
day 17
weight
before: 132.0
after: 131.4
change: -0.6
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getting closer to the 120's!
despite eating junk food i could tell that i was probably going to lose because the hunger pangs last night were extremely intense. honestly i can't remember the last time it was that bad. i just watched my variety bangumi and tried to let it subside but sometimes it's so hard because japanese tv shows have a lot of food so i saw like a basic ass dorayaki on the screen and had a meltdown due to wanting to eat so bad.
for some reason it felt good psychologically to not indulge the need to eat even though it was physically hurting a lot. i've already surpassed my losertown prediction for july 31st but let's see because we all know my body loves to rescue the fat.
i was thinking a few days ago about how so much of me other than weight needs to be completely overhauled in order for my glow up to be complete, but at the same time i feel like i just need to tackle the weight and then everything else can be achieved one by one. like, for example, i have no real friends to speak of. i have my boyfriend in japan and some online friends but i don't know anyone in real life at all. i was kind of friendly with one of the japanese exchange students at my school but we had absolutely nothing in common besides speaking japanese. when she left to japan i didn't keep in touch lol. and anyone else in this current locale is out of the question since i have no background with farming or being on drugs.
also, my face really bothers me. i'm starting to see signs of age on my face. some people still tell me i look so young but i saw pictures of myself from 10 years ago and the change is extremely upsetting. i can't really reconcile this idea that i'm in my 30's. i feel like every other young person around me on the inside. it's really difficult to realize i'm a decade older than all of these people around me and i'm starting to look older too. this can't be amended naturally so i need to start looking into medical intervention.
speaking of that, i'm concerned about loose or sagging skin. i'm just extremely afraid i'm going to have visible loose skin and idk what to do. i'm not sure if my weight loss will be extreme enough to get the loose skin but idk i want to lose like 74 pounds overall and my dad recently lost 50 pounds and he has a lot of saggy skin. i keep trying to increase collagen or something but idk. i need youth!!! i need youth!! agh
this is all of what i want
cultured personality
friend group of growth-oriented people
looks 25
effortlessly fashionable wardrobe
steady career trajectory
enrolled at my 4 year school of choice
this will all go down in new york once i meet my goal weight. it's like painting onto a canvas when the canvas isn't complete.
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Posted 25 July 2022 - 08:49 AM
✰ sunday, july 24th, 2022 ✰
woke up feeling like utter garbage at way too early AM, had to get myself together to catch my train. which ended up being 10 minutes late. i felt like i had to puke, actually, but nothing came out i was just having horrible acid stomach pain etc. resting heart rate up of course. i shoved a couple caffeinated beverages in my bag and put on the jbrekkie shirt i got last night--long sleeve--because it's always freezing on the train.
✿ breakfast ✿
diet dr. pepper (5)
i was blessedly alone for about an hour, then someone took the seat next to me. my train stopped moving. it remained stationary for TWO HOURS. they connected a new engine, but while the engine was off the power went out and honestly it was so nice because the AC turned off so i wasn't fucking FREEZING. i was planning to just not eat anything more especially because my weight was so disappointing and i felt so disgustingly bloated. i was so fucking tired i just tried to sleep for a bit and actually my heart rate dropped lower than in my sleep during the night.
i tried to do my makeup on the train which was kind of a fail. finally the train actually got to where i wanted to go and i had to pee so bad and i wanted desperately to eat nothing and just have my weight go down and i was super regretting bringing the scale. but i got to kiss my fiancรฉe and i missed them so much and it wasn't so bad. when we got to their house i got all worried about food and anxious and just told them i brought a scale and that i was going to be weird about food as usual. i mean, they know. i just shouldn't have brought a scale because they do have one already and it's probably more accurate. that was so stupid of me. i know how much they weigh now, they've lost a significant amount of weight since last summer. i knew kind of immediately that i'll be eating like shit while here, their kitchen and house is rather messy and not a lot of fresh foods and vegan stuff so it's stressful. they're also in the middle of nowhere so we can't really walk to a store. i weighed myself, relieved a bit at the drop, then had some feeble looking grapes their mom brought us.
✿ snack ✿
grapes (50)
felt stupid for eating and could tell i was going to want to eat more, probably b/p, but that it would be difficult and i wouldn't be able to do a thorough job. i sort of gave up on this week, i'm not going to lose weight i just want to stay under 100 and have a nice time with my fiancรฉe. i'll lose weight again when i get back home with more control i guess... so anyway i ordered dinner lol. impulsive. felt kind of mortified by anyone else knowing. i just wanted like comfort food because everything's kind of broken and unreliable and scary at my partner's house and i can feel my orderly clean organization mental illness clawing at me and my throat hurt so much and my weight was already too high and i couldn't help talking about calories and my need to exercise.
✿ dinner ✿
5 golden triangles (250)
+ a bit of sweet chili dipping sauce (10)
tofu lad nar (600?)
watermelon sour patch lol (360)
unfortunately the dish i got had egg in it, and honestly not enough noodles, way too much sauce. i will stick with the reliables in the future. then i went to puke in their toilet, but as quietly and quickly as i could, with only my empty diet sunkist bottle to use as a cup, to be respectful. i know i didn't get everything out but i didn't want to worry my partner and i didn't want them to realize i was throwing up. my throat hurt like a bitch though and i still felt bloated and fat. i told them i needed to exercise still and they let me just pace in place and we sort of exercised together idk. it was weird a little but it was also nice and i love them and i didn't feel too bad and got to 5k steps so i think at least i should have burned what i ate even without the purging. still felt nervous. my throat hurt. they gave me a grapefruit cough drop. 10 calories maybe? and i played animal crossing and they played pokรฉmon and everything was fine and maybe we'll go to the mall tomorrow. it's all going to be okay, i'm just definitely not going to lose weight while i'm here.
today's stats:
weight
AM: 97.5 lbs.PM: 97.2 lbs./ later: ate, 100.4, purged, 98.8 lbs. maybe.intake: 1225? (purged some? most?)
tdee: 1615
steps: 5.1k
b/p free: no
vegan: no :/
bee, 20, he/they, college student
emo music enjoyer, vegan caffeine addict, cat lesbian
gad & mdd, adhd. bpd & c-ptsd. pots. autistic.
stats:
✰ 5'0 | cw: 96 lbs (bmi 18.7) ✰
hw: 118 lbs (bmi 23.0) | lw: 74 lbs (bmi 14.5)
gw1: > 100 | gw2: 94.4 lbs (underweight)
gw3: 90 | gw4: 84 | ugw: 80 (bmi 15.6)
an-r -> an-b/p -> bn -> ednos
✰ days binge free: 0 <> days purge free: 0 ✰
my crowning achievement:
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Posted Today, 07:05 AM
taking a bit of a break from updating consistently this week because i am with my fiancรฉe and trying not to be a head case about everything. eating is not going perfect and the scale i brought (silly idea) is not reliable either so i'm just resigning myself to gaining weight this week, i did go one day without purging which was awful and my digestive system is so not happy with me. i'll type up summaries for monday and yesterday but i will be trying to eat less the rest of my time here (lol. lmao). today we go to the mall and see a movie and tomorrow we are seeing mitski and then friday i go back. at some point we will bake i think. no accurate weight updates until saturday i guess !
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✰ monday, july 25th, 2022 ✰
my resting heart rate actually went down in my sleep. like i slept pretty well. i missed my partner so much. we however did not go to the mall today because they have a chronic problem of being too sleepy all the time. instead we settled on going pokรฉwalking later and going to local convenience store because i wanted to stock up on snacks (food always questionable at their house). i felt very bloated and for some fucking reason decided to have breakfast, which i have not been doing, i don't like to eat early, i was just stressed. so that was a bad idea. especially because i couldn't actually measure anything, i had to make do with whatever was around, and i didn't end up purging.
✿ breakfast ✿
oats (300?)
unsweetened applesauce (10?)
raspberry preserves (80?)
dried cranberries (65?)
grapes (25?)
cocoa powder (15?)
instant coffee + cinnamon (5)
i felt gross, so gross that i had to keep eating through the afternoon. i am just not right in the head. at least i had monster.
✿ afternoon ✿
nectarine (55)
monster rehab tea lemonade (25)
kodiak chocolate chip granola bar (210)
caramel almond sea salt kind bar (170)
bohemian barbecue hippeas (260)
so yeah i felt awful terrible blah blah blah very bloated whatever but i didn't look too bad. went walking to get exercise in and play pokรฉmon go and cried a little bit and got so many fucking bug bites. had a little fight. it started raining. when we were at the convenience store i wanted to steal more but my partner abandoned me and i'd never been there before and it was raining harder so i panicked and got out of there with just 2 new drinks, a protein cookie and airhead bites. the protein cookie was a bad idea because i know it tastes like shit but i just didn't spend more time looking around. so it's just in my bad sitting there now. i was stressed about food and everything and my partner's mom made some tofu vegetable stir fry thing that i would have no idea the calories of. (i think i'm overestimating the calories for it but it doesn't really matter.) i started eating the candy. i finished the bag by the time we went to bed. ugh.
✿ dinner ✿
rainbow airhead bites (690)
tofu stirfry thing (350?)
and yeah! i didn't purge! was that a victory? i can't tell. like, i could have. and i just didn't. which my body didn't thank me for, so like always i am reminding myself to never do that again. obviously gaining weight from this. so today was just kinda fucked, emotionally and physically, but at least i had some family bonding time or whatever. how do i not let my eating disorder ruin shit for me? does anyone know? thanks.
today's stats:
weight
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intake: 2260???tdee: 1630+steps: 5.2k
b/p free: no but no purge
vegan: uh? yeah?
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Posted Today, 07:54 AM
✰ tuesday, july 26th, 2022 ✰
heart rate still down which was pleasing. woke up in extreme abdominal pain and kind of shat my brains out. my digestive system is just so fucked up. what exactly did i do wrong this time? was it just overeating? was it the tofu? the noodles? the entire bag of airheads xtreme rainbow berry bites? probably that.
wanted to go to the mall today but that also continued to not happen because of such aforementioned problems. my partner is often depressed and does not want to do anything that takes significant effort (or even not significant, it's just not a priority for them) which is annoying. i don't want to feel like i'm the only one who puts in work but this has happened many times. like i hate myself too, y'know, and i still manage to get my shit together! i'm autistic and borderline and have had an eating disorder and c-ptsd for years and it's not a competition so can we both try here? after a lot of crying and them being angry about their weight we decided to go to the mall tomorrow, not take the bus in today.
sometimes i feel like i'm making progress on this front but it stagnates especially when we're apart. sucks both having bpd lmao
anyways we made lunch eventually which was just...fries and vegetable dumplings and random raw vegetables. it's always an adventure here.
✿ lunch ✿
shoestring fries (150?)
ketchup (35)
vegetable potstickers (130)
garlic hummus (100?)
baby carrots (15) + celery (10) + lettuce (15)
um and then i was still fucking hungry so i had a lot of granola which was stupid of me plus it had consequences even though there was literally an entire unopened bag of the same granola in the cupboard!
✿ afternoon ✿
cinnamon granola (500?)
we made dinner late, stir-fried some vegetables and also made some frozen vegan mac n cheese things. partner's sister got upset that i ate the granola and i wanted to die, it wasn't even that much and there was, as i said, another bag of it but it made me feel like shit and it made my partner get mad so i ended up purging later (though not thoroughly). we watched a bit of a show to distract from everything. cooking together is soothing and feels domestic.
✿ dinner ✿
pepper broccoli mushroom stirfry (75?)
amy's vegan broccoli & cheeze bake (450)
amy's vegan rice mac & cheeze (380)
bleh. blegh! bleughh and then i still needed to get exercise (step compulsion is just 5k these days but it's not effortless) and also pokรฉmon so we walked outside in the dark to the library and back and i felt a lot better and it was nice outside and i'm in love so everything is okay. i don't want to have to purge while i'm here it's disgusting and takes too much time and i need to be discreet. so tomorrow i am praying for my brain to let me not eat for a while and for me to not be too big for clothes i want to try on. fingers crossed. today's food estimates may have been off but i feel like i was probably around maintenance with what i purged and little exercise. i also started my period which explained somewhat all the crying and being hungry. tomorrow will be better i hope.
today's stats:
weight
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intake: 1860? (purged some)
tdee: 1520?steps: 5.5kb/p free: no
vegan: yes?
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okay. all caught up now. i feel so fucking big right now because i for sure have been gaining and i'm also now on my period which sucks and makes me feel so dysphoric. please let me not have gained back over 100 i'll kms. i also am a bit nervous because i haven't had a real job in a bit but i am spending money on my partner (their family is relatively poor) and it's uhhhh expensive to keep this up, i'm going to pay for them to get their ears pierced today and probably for both of us to see a movie as well as take the bus home. i better be able to steal. i don't know how much money i have in my bank account atm lol
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Posted 25 July 2022 - 04:04 PM
Choco_Bitch_612, on 22 Jul 2022 - 2:06 PM, said:
have u tried gradually decreasing?
I really should. I just need to find the right balance of exercise and food. Thank you. Hope you're doing well <3
earthmoon, on 22 Jul 2022 - 2:58 PM, said:
you might be extra hungry bc you're working out so much, it'll even out soon but in the meantime take care of your mental health and don't blame yourself for wanting more food
I was upset at myself because I used to restrict and workout for very long periods during my lw, not sure why I'm finding it so difficult this time. Thank you. I'm trying my best lol. Hope things are well with you <3
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stats
height: 5'3
sw: 245lbs, cw: 225lbs, gw: 98lbs (long way to go)
weight loss log
245 240 235 230 225 220 215 210 205 200
195 190 185 180 175 170 165 160
155 150 145 130 125 120
115 110 105 100
98
weight loss plan
exercise
apart from your daily steps, aim to speed walk or jog for a minimum of 10 miles (16 km) 5 days a week.
pilates at least 3 days a week.
diet
net calorie limit - do not go over 1200 calories!
omad at least one day a week ( ideally 2 days, but one day minimum)
and please, stop binging!! try your best to not binge, ok.
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Posted 25 July 2022 - 04:08 PM
Archive in progress.
I thought we were moving to the new forums today, so I asked for my thread/posts to be deleted. But it looks like it's been postponed to mid august. Either way, I don't want my old posts on the read only version of mpa. I'd rather start afresh on the new site. So i've been archiving my posts on my own on a separate journal so that I can look back on my old posts to see my workouts and diet. That's why my thread is empty. I guess I'll continue to log until we move. I think follows don't carry over, so I'll probably make a new thread on the new site.
skylight's metamorphosis
documenting my long journey to a complete change in shape.
stats
height: 5'3
sw: 245lbs, cw: 225lbs, gw: 98lbs (long way to go)
weight loss log
245 240 235 230 225 220 215 210 205 200
195 190 185 180 175 170 165 160
155 150 145 130 125 120
115 110 105 100
98
weight loss plan
exercise
apart from your daily steps, aim to speed walk or jog for a minimum of 10 miles (16 km) 5 days a week.
pilates at least 3 days a week.
diet
net calorie limit - do not go over 1200 calories!
omad at least one day a week ( ideally 2 days, but one day minimum)
and please, stop binging!! try your best to not binge, ok.
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Posted 25 July 2022 - 04:16 PM
Going to try to complete a juice cleanse. I haven't done one in a long time.
skylight's metamorphosis
documenting my long journey to a complete change in shape.
stats
height: 5'3
sw: 245lbs, cw: 225lbs, gw: 98lbs (long way to go)
weight loss log
245 240 235 230 225 220 215 210 205 200
195 190 185 180 175 170 165 160
155 150 145 130 125 120
115 110 105 100
98
weight loss plan
exercise
apart from your daily steps, aim to speed walk or jog for a minimum of 10 miles (16 km) 5 days a week.
pilates at least 3 days a week.
diet
net calorie limit - do not go over 1200 calories!
omad at least one day a week ( ideally 2 days, but one day minimum)
and please, stop binging!! try your best to not binge, ok.
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Posted Yesterday, 02:18 PM
meal 6: red rooibos, lemongrass and rose tea (5)
total calories: 765
notes
skylight's metamorphosis
documenting my long journey to a complete change in shape.
stats
height: 5'3
sw: 245lbs, cw: 225lbs, gw: 98lbs (long way to go)
weight loss log
245 240 235 230 225 220 215 210 205 200
195 190 185 180 175 170 165 160
155 150 145 130 125 120
115 110 105 100
98
weight loss plan
exercise
apart from your daily steps, aim to speed walk or jog for a minimum of 10 miles (16 km) 5 days a week.
pilates at least 3 days a week.
diet
net calorie limit - do not go over 1200 calories!
omad at least one day a week ( ideally 2 days, but one day minimum)
and please, stop binging!! try your best to not binge, ok.
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Posted Today, 09:47 AM
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skylight's metamorphosis
documenting my long journey to a complete change in shape.
stats
height: 5'3
sw: 245lbs, cw: 225lbs, gw: 98lbs (long way to go)
weight loss log
245 240 235 230 225 220 215 210 205 200
195 190 185 180 175 170 165 160
155 150 145 130 125 120
115 110 105 100
98
weight loss plan
exercise
apart from your daily steps, aim to speed walk or jog for a minimum of 10 miles (16 km) 5 days a week.
pilates at least 3 days a week.
diet
net calorie limit - do not go over 1200 calories!
omad at least one day a week ( ideally 2 days, but one day minimum)
and please, stop binging!! try your best to not binge, ok.
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6'/180 cm
CW: 336.2
26 days binge-free
MPA-lurking since 2013.
Trapped in binge/restrict cycle, with a couple of years of nothing but BED.
As of May 2022, back on MPA and restricting once again.
Goals
350 lbs/159 kg (reached July 1, 2022)
300 lbs/136 kg
280 lbs/113 kg
260 lbs/118 kg
240 lbs/109 kg
220 lbs/100 kg | Out of obese range
200 lbs/91 kg
190 lbs/86 kg
180 lbs/82 kg | Out of overweight range
170 lbs/77 kg
160 lbs/73 kg
150 lbs/68 kg
140 lbs/64 kg
130 lbs/59 kg | Considered underweight
120 lbs/55 kg
... And lower, if this body can handle it. (:
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Posted 22 July 2022 - 10:19 PM
hey i wanted to respond to the other day's post and hadn't found the time before now
if you're vomiting after the gym you're definitely going too hard - either in some combination of the weather if you're in a heat wave, due to the deficit you're maintaining, the intensity of the workouts you're consistently doing, or that you're not drinking enough water during your workout. i know what site we're on but please try to be as careful as you can be
congrats on three weeks binge free by the way!
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Posted 23 July 2022 - 03:31 PM
336.3 this morning, not a fan of that. I imagine it's just food weight, since I ate a bit more volume-wise than typical. Taking a diuretic, hydrating plenty, and hoping my weight ends up being closer to 330 tomorrow. I think I'll go ahead and order a new binder regardless. I've been needing to for awhile now.
I slept in super late, so I haven't done anything all that productive, minus head to the gym. Will update as per usual later tonight.
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Posted 23 July 2022 - 03:42 PM
TPWLMST, on 22 Jul 2022 - 10:19 PM, said:
hey i wanted to respond to the other day's post and hadn't found the time before now
if you're vomiting after the gym you're definitely going too hard - either in some combination of the weather if you're in a heat wave, due to the deficit you're maintaining, the intensity of the workouts you're consistently doing, or that you're not drinking enough water during your workout. i know what site we're on but please try to be as careful as you can be
congrats on three weeks binge free by the way!
As usual, I appreciate the guidance, my friend. (: I took it easy at the gym today, and had a bit more energy due to eating so much yesterday. No throwing up since, thank god.
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Posted 23 July 2022 - 10:48 PM
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Posted 23 July 2022 - 11:54 PM
this is such a relief that you're feeling a bit better/less sick! your intake yesterday and the day before(? i'm not sure what time zone you're in presently) were still way under tdee and unless you're counting net calories you're probably finishing the day way under that number... do you think you would be able to slightly increase your intake for a while and see if it improves your condition enough without making you feel too bad? i really understand that that's stressful but you'll have better performance in the gym (which means you'll probably burn more) and you might be able to feel more energetic
also congrats on three weeks binge-free! can hear more about your cooking?
also also, mpa's not migrating until mid-august now so more rambles 4 us >:3
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Posted 24 July 2022 - 11:52 AM
earthmoon, on 23 Jul 2022 - 11:54 PM, said:
this is such a relief that you're feeling a bit better/less sick! your intake yesterday and the day before(? i'm not sure what time zone you're in presently) were still way under tdee and unless you're counting net calories you're probably finishing the day way under that number... do you think you would be able to slightly increase your intake for a while and see if it improves your condition enough without making you feel too bad? i really understand that that's stressful but you'll have better performance in the gym (which means you'll probably burn more) and you might be able to feel more energetic
also congrats on three weeks binge-free! can hear more about your cooking?
also also, mpa's not migrating until mid-august now so more rambles 4 us >:3
Oh, sweet, thanks for letting me know about the change to the Grand MPA Migration. I must've not seen that update. But yes, more Rambles! In regards to cooking, I've more or less found a few vegan, and by extension, lower calorie, replacements for things I used to eat. Flax wraps over tortillas, different meat alternatives, etc. I didn't know I enjoyed oatmeal until a couple of weeks ago. It's been nice.
I've tried doing net cal calculations a few years back, and it just wasn't for me. For one reason or another, it usually ended up triggering a binge? I believe having that extra 'allowance' of calories led me out of control. Just how my brain works, I presume. Tracking net would definitely fare better if I was more active, like you are. I'm always so impressed by your exercises in your accountability! I don't think I could cycle a single km without wanting to highkey die. You're doing amazing! (:
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Posted 25 July 2022 - 02:25 AM
ahhh yes, that makes SO much sense for net cals to trigger a binge. i'm still not 100% sure it's for me... but thank you!! i love cycling and definitely sounds more impressive than it is haha. from the sounds of your gym sessions you're plenty active!
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Posted 25 July 2022 - 12:36 PM
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Posted 25 July 2022 - 01:02 PM
it happens, especially with how low you've been restricting. sorry to see that you're sick though
also did you see that hnk is finally off of hiatus?
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Posted 25 July 2022 - 09:10 PM
I sure hope you get to feeling better. <3 Been dealing with some sort of laryngitis bullshit on and off for a couple weeks as well so it must be some crud going around.
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Posted 25 July 2022 - 09:56 PM
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Posted 25 July 2022 - 10:05 PM
TPWLMST, on 25 Jul 2022 - 1:02 PM, said:
it happens, especially with how low you've been restricting. sorry to see that you're sick though
also did you see that hnk is finally off of hiatus?
Your timing is excellent, I had just read chapter 97 a short while before posting tonight! I'm a bit anxious to see where we're going from here, and what transformation Phos (well, if we can still call them that) is going under next. Ichikawa came in swinging post-hiatus.
L0LLIR0T, on 25 Jul 2022 - 9:10 PM, said:
I sure hope you get to feeling better. <3 Been dealing with some sort of laryngitis bullshit on and off for a couple weeks as well so it must be some crud going around.
Thank you Lolli, and same to you too. Hot tea and warm hugs. <3
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