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Posted 19 July 2022 - 01:55 AM
Choco_Bitch_612, on 18 Jul 2022 - 6:54 PM, said:
yeah that’s what i was thinking too. ngl i still think gym bros are a tiny bit disordered (let’s be fr which healthy person downs shots of olive oil to meet their calorie goal ?? that is not normal) but it’s way better than restricting and binging. i have tried to disprove the rubbish he reads online which ig is the most i can do w/o overstepping the mark ๐ฅฒ๐ฅฒ at least i can reassure myself by knowing that i’m doing somethingobvs it's too early to tell, but i get the vibe that he might want to go down that gymbro hole lol...
i think maybe ask him what his goals are? and shed some insight on diet stuff. there's so much mis-info out there, and ironically ppl with ed's seem to be the most educated on weight, health, and how the body works.
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weigh in 19th july
92.9 lbs ; 42.1 kg ; bmi 18.0
that’s lower than i expected tbh, can’t complain
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Posted 19 July 2022 - 11:11 AM
days binge free: 5
water intake: 2.3 L
food intake
crisps
costa latte can
b&j’s cookie dough ice cream
croissant
total: 844 calories
๐ฅฒ๐ฅฒ i cannot stand this heat pls get me out of here. my body hates me and likes to make restriction hard in the summer which is totally shit bc i have no distractions either. still v hungry today but i don’t wanna eat more so i’ll try not to. the fam is having maccies n it was so hard to resist ordering sth but i did it. kind of regret it now bc it smells amazing but whatevs
finished the pint of b&j while watching a movie bc it’s yummy and refreshing. i ate a lot of it but it’s fine. my weigh in was a nice surprise this morning so i feel like i can chill out a lil today. it would’ve been nice to be 91 lbs so i could be back in the 17s bmi but i won’t bitch too much ab it bc at least i’m super close
will update if i eat more but if i don’t then total intake is 844 today <3
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Posted 19 July 2022 - 04:52 PM
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Posted 19 July 2022 - 09:46 PM
¡! angel, on 19 Jul 2022 - 4:52 PM, said:
hmm debating creating an accountability thread on edc j in case the transition doesn’t go smoothly and i lose this one or if new mpa dies. i do not have a good feeling about this
Ya honestly neither do I... I'm considering just leaving for a bit and coming back in a week or two to see what the state of the new MPA is, and possibly just not coming back at all. I like glitchy, old MPA the way it is, and for some reason the idea of a clean, new, rebranded MPA feels off, or like it won't work. Idk
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Height: 5'5.5" / 65.5in / 166cm
HW: 157lbs / 71kg / BMI 25.7
LW: 145lbs / 65kg / BMI 23.8
SW: 149lbs / 67kg / BMI 24.4
CW: 145lbs / 65kg / BMI 23.8
Goals
GW1: 145lbs / 65kg / BMI 23.8
GW2: 140lbs / 63kg / BMI 22.9
GW3: 135lbs / 61kg / BMI 22.1
GW4: 130lbs / 59kg / BMI 21.3
GW5: 125lbs / 56kg / BMI 20.5
GW6: 120lbs / 54kg / BMI 19.7
GW7: 115lbs / 52kg / BMI 18.8
GW8: 110lbs / 49kg / BMI 18.0
UGW: 105lbs / 47kg / BMI 17.2
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Posted Yesterday, 01:59 AM
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Ya honestly neither do I... I'm considering just leaving for a bit and coming back in a week or two to see what the state of the new MPA is, and possibly just not coming back at all. I like glitchy, old MPA the way it is, and for some reason the idea of a clean, new, rebranded MPA feels off, or like it won't work. Idk
exactly, part of mpa’s charm is that it’s broken and borderline unfunctional. a revamp of the site is probably for the better it just feels weird. kyle has been great with answering questions but things go wrong, he can’t promise a completely smooth moving process. if it wasn’t for the lack of other good ed spaces online i’d stop posting here ):
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Posted Yesterday, 01:18 PM
days binge free: 6
water intake: 2.1 L
food intake
caramel latte
crisps
brioche swirl
youngs fisherman pie w extra cheese
total: 887 calories
the coffee i estimated at 200 bc i got it from the tearoom in the country park. we were supposed to be having lunch there but they had the calories for the food on the menu and the lowest calorie option was the tomato soup and roll at almost 500 calories :/ couldn’t justify it for such an unsatisfying meal so i had the drink instead bc even tho they didn’t have the calories posted for the coffees they’re def lower than the food
i hate how crap i’ve been at restriction lately. i used to be able to restrict effortlessly at 300 once but now it’s so hard to stay at a low number and i have to keep repeating ‘don’t eat’ in my head. i read a post where someone talked about having to romanticising their ed to be able to restrict properly and i def think that i’m the same. i don’t struggle as much in winter as i do in summer, bc it’s easier to glamourise the typical ed symptoms in cold weather for myself which gives me motivation to restrict. like being cold and having to wear massive jumpers, having massive cups of hot drinks to warm you up, that kind of thing. summer doesn’t hit the same
i think i’ll weigh myself tom. i hope that i’m at 91 lbs so that i can be bmi 17 again but i wont be surprised if i’m not. i have nobody else to blame but myself by eating so much recently
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92.4 lbs ; 41.9 kg ; bmi 18.0
:c only half a pound in two days. that’s not good enough. this is why i’m doomed to low res for life, losing slowly isn’t enough
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July 11: 1000/day on hold for a bit, but I'm still keeping up with my accountability. See This Post.
July 18: My new goal is 800/day because of losertown/justCICO predictions. See This Post.
Here's the Most Recent Post.
TW: Self harm, opioid use, suicidal thoughts
I told myself I'd stick to my accountability and not make another one. Whoops.
Welcome to SadSun's Accountability #4:
↠ Adventure to October ↞
June 6th - October 31st
5 months/21 weeks/147 days to lose 45lbs
My goal with this accountability is to reach or be close to my UGW of 105lbs by October of this year. I didn't choose October randomly- my HRT consultation appointment is in mid-October, and I want to be at my goal weight by the time I actually start HRT, so that I can reap the full benefits of fat redistribution and already feel a little more like myself before I take the first step in my medical transition, which I've been waiting for since 2018.
I'm starting June 6th, because for some reason I have to start every diet/accountability on a Monday, and because that gives me a little while longer to get settled and build a routine (I just moved and got a job lol)
About Me
Stats
Height: 5'5.5" / 65.5in / 166cm
HW: 157lbs / 71kg / BMI 25.7 (overweight)
LW: 145lbs / 65kg / BMI 23.8
SW: 149lbs / 67kg / BMI 24.4 (high-healthy)
CW: 145lbs
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GW2: 140lbs / 63kg / BMI 22.9
GW3: 135lbs / 61kg / BMI 22.1
GW4: 130lbs / 59kg / BMI 21.3
GW5: 125lbs / 56kg / BMI 20.5 (low-healthy)
GW6: 120lbs / 54kg / BMI 19.7
GW7: 115lbs / 52kg / BMI 18.8
GW8: 110lbs / 49kg / BMI 18.0 (underweight)
UGW: 105lbs / 47kg / BMI 17.2
Life Stuff
Hi, I'm SadSun. I'm an 18 year old trans dude that lives in the southwestern US. I recently got my first job as a busser and host at a small restaurant in my city (though I actually do a little bit of everything), but I'm hopefully going to get promoted to a waiter within the next month. I consider working the same as light exercise, since I'm on my feet, running around, and moving/carrying heavy things all day. I also help take care of my bedbound grandparent. I'm hoping to start my prerequisites for a bachelor's degree sometime within the next year, and I want to learn to drive as well. I recently graduated high school as a homeschooled kid.
Diagnosis/History
I've been diagnosed with ADHD, likely have some form of PTSD or anxiety, and have been dealing with disordered eating for several years. My entire immediate family has a history of EDs- either BED or AN-B/P as far as I know- as well as just about every other mental illness or issue you can think of. I've been overweight most of my life and up until recently, one of my favorite things to do when I was stressed (which was- and still is- all the time) was eat. Last summer I decided I needed to lose weight and started restricting instead, but that eventually devolved into binging all the weight back. Now, I'm stuck in a binge/restrict cycle from hell, and have been gaining and losing the same weight for nearly a year. I discovered MPA by accident last year, and finally made an account in January, but still haven't had any luck breaking the cycle- I just can't seem to stick to any diet or goal I set for myself. I'm trying to change that.
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Rules
↠ 1000 calories per day limit
↠ Metabolism/plateau-breaking days allowed twice in two weeks
↠ Mandatory weigh-ins on Mondays, optional the rest of the week
↠ Expended calories aren't subtracted (not net)
Goals
↠ Reach or be close to my UGW by October
↠ Drink at least 56 oz of water every day
↠ Do light exercise once a day (working, going for a walk, weights, etc)
↠ Participate in at least one hobby every day
↠ Take care of myself properly (brush teeth, shower, etc)
Big Goals
↠ Get a tattoo
↠ Learn to drive
↠ Change my name
↠ Start t
↠ Move out
Formats
Daily Update
Date
x/1000 Calories
Weight
xlbs / xkg
BMI x
Intake
Breakfast
↠ Food/Drink (calories)
Lunch
↠ Food/Drink (calories)
Dinner
↠ Food/Drink (calories)
Snack/Other
↠ Food/Drink (calories)
Total Calorie Intake: x calories
Total Water Intake: x oz
Exercise
Exercise - Minutes/Hours
Self-Care
(Inspired by Venus as a Boy; Kiichii's Accountability)
Morning
↠ Up and going by 9:
↠ Brush Teeth:
↠ Mouthwash:
Day
↠ Shower:
↠ Hobby:
Night
↠ Brush Teeth:
↠ Mouthwash:
↠ Floss:
↠ Wash Face:
↠ Bed by 12:
Song of The Day
(Inspired by Faye's Quest)
Song Title - Artist
Comments
Comments about the day, intake and diet-wise
Life Stuff
Comments about daily life not related to my intake or diet
Weekly Overview
↠ Weekly Overview ↞
Date - Date
Total Calories / 7000
Stats
SW: xlbs / xkg / BMI x
CW: xlbs / xkg / BMI x
Total Lost: xlbs / xkg
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Day 1: Total Calories/1000
Day 2: Total Calories/1000
Day 3: Total Calories/1000
Day 4: Total Calories/1000
Day 5: Total Calories/1000
Day 6: Total Calories/1000
Day 7: Total Calories/1000
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Comments on the Week
Comments on the week overall, intake/diet-wise
Life Summary
Summary of stuff that happened during the week outside of intake/diet stuff
Color Reference:
900-1000 calories
800-900 calories
500-700 calories
<500 calories
1000+ calories
Metabolism Day
Monthly Overview
(Example for June)
↠ Monthly Overview ↞
Month
Total Calories / Monthly Limit
(limit depends on the month, obviously)
Stats
SW: xlbs / xkg / BMI x
CW: xlbs / xkg / BMI x
Total Lost: xlbs / xkg
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MO TU WE TH FR SA SU
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...6 ..7 ..8 ..9 10 11 12
.13 14 15 16 17 18 19
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27 28 29 30..............
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Comments on the Month
Comments on the month overall, intake/diet-wise
Life Summary
Summary of stuff that happened during the month outside of intake/diet stuff
Color Reference:
900-1000 calories
800-900 calories
500-700 calories
<500 calories
1000+ calories
Metabolism Day
↠ Overview ↞
Start Statistics
Weight: 149 lbs / 67 kg
BMI: 24.4
End Statistics
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Week 1 (June 6-12)
Day 1: Fail, 1167 total, 149 lbs
Day 2: Covid Hiatus
Day 3: Covid Hiatus
Day 4: Covid Hiatus
Day 5: Covid Hiatus
Day 6: Covid Hiatus
Day 7: Covid Hiatus
Week Overview
Week 2 (June 13-19)
Day 8: Covid Hiatus
Day 9: Covid Hiatus
Day 10: Success, 725 total, 149 lbs
Day 11: Success, 835 total, 147 lbs
Day 12: Hiatus
Day 13: Hiatus
Day 14: Hiatus
Week 3 (June 20-26)
Whole week hiatus
Week 4 (June 27-July 3)
Day 22: Hiatus
Day 23: Fail, 1965 total
Day 24: Success, ~1000 total
Day 25: Metabolism Day, 149 lbs
June Overview
Day 26: Success, 1030 total
Day 27: Fail, ???? total
Day 28: Fail, 1745 total
Week Overview
Week 5 (July 4-10)
Day 29: Fail, 1299 total
Day 30: Success, 850 total, 149 lbs
Week 6 (July 11-17)
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Week Overview
Week 7 (July 18-24)
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Week Overview
Week 8 (July 25-31)
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Week Overview
July Overview
Week 9 (August 1-7)
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Week Overview
Week 10 (August 8-14)
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Week Overview
Week 11 (August 15-21)
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Week Overview
Week 12 (August 22-28)
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Week Overview
Week 13 (August 29-September 4)
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August Overview
Week 14 (September 5-11)
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Week 15 (September 12-18)
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Week 16 (September 19-25)
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Week 17 (September 26-October 2)
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September Overview
Week 18 (October 3-9)
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Week 19 (October 10-16)
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Week 20 (October 17-23)
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Week Overview
Week 21 (October 24-30 & 31)
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Week Overview
October Overview
FYI this looks strange on mobile- no idea why the colors are off and some lines are missing
Color Reference:
900-1000 calories
800-900 calories
500-700 calories
<500 calories
1000+ calories
Metabolism Day
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Height: 5'5.5" / 65.5in / 166cm
HW: 157lbs / 71kg / BMI 25.7
LW: 145lbs / 65kg / BMI 23.8
SW: 149lbs / 67kg / BMI 24.4
CW: 145lbs / 65kg / BMI 23.8
Goals
GW1: 145lbs / 65kg / BMI 23.8
GW2: 140lbs / 63kg / BMI 22.9
GW3: 135lbs / 61kg / BMI 22.1
GW4: 130lbs / 59kg / BMI 21.3
GW5: 125lbs / 56kg / BMI 20.5
GW6: 120lbs / 54kg / BMI 19.7
GW7: 115lbs / 52kg / BMI 18.8
GW8: 110lbs / 49kg / BMI 18.0
UGW: 105lbs / 47kg / BMI 17.2
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Okay, I need to change what I'm doing if I want to be even close to the 120's by October
Weight loss according to losertown and justCICO, for 15 weeks, to reach (at least) the 120's by October at 800/day
losertown/justCICO
SW: 145lbs
HGT: 65.5in
Light exercise 1-3 times a week
800 calories per day
(in lbs)
Week 01 - 7.25: 142
Week 02 - 8.01: 140
Week 03 - 8.08: 138/137
Week 04 - 8.15: 136/135
Week 05 - 8.22: 133
Week 06 - 8.29: 131
Week 07 - 9.05: 129/128
Week 08 - 9.12: 127/126
Week 09 - 9.19: 124
Week 10 - 9.26: 122
Week 11 - 10.3: 120
Week 12 - 10.10: 118
Week 13 - 10.17: 116/115
Week 14 - 10.24: 114/113
Week 15 - 10.31: 112
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Posted 18 July 2022 - 11:41 PM
So basically, as far as my checks from my job go, they all get signed over to my mom since I don't have a bank account and she can't/won't take me to get one. But I do get to keep my tips at the end of the night- 10% of whatever the server made (closer to 7% with Ben and 8% with Marge, neither of them pay me fully)- which is on average $45 a week, assuming I only work three days (four total shifts), but the other busser has been having me cover for them at least once a week recently. Anyways, I made a "savings" today, just a few envelopes to split my cash between. At this rate, I should afford my name change- which is twice as expensive as I originally thought, turns out- in six months. Fuck me. In retrospect that's not a long time- only six more months after, idk, five-ish years of waiting- but like, now I'm kinda planning to die by November, so that doesn't fit within the timeframe yknow
It kinda sucks that I bust my ass for almost $1000 a month, but only actually get $180 of it. And I probably shouldn't be annoyed, but I am. I feel like the fact that I don't have to take care of my grandparent for 17 hours a week doesn't really justify that I don't get to keep most of the money I make, or that I have to do most of the at home work whenever I'm not at the restaurant (and if I don't, then I get told "you agreed to this." I'm curious why my mom's regular job exempts her from house work, like cleaning or taking care of my grandparent, but my more physically demanding job means I'm responsible for most of it). But whatever. I knew that part of my money was going to bills and I would be responsible for more around the house when I got this job, so I should really just stfu.
I haven't taken any hydrocodone since I fucked up and lost my stash, but I'm slowly building it back up. I don't want to take any until I have 40mg saved up again for some reason.
I've really, really wanted to sh for a while now, so tonight I thought I could like, just do one or two cuts to satisfy the craving and feel, idk, punished enough for existing. But nope. Now I want to fuck up my whole arm. I can't, but holy shit do I want to. This is so fucked. I deserve it though.
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Posted 19 July 2022 - 03:35 AM
So basically I haven't slept at all because fuck this stupid futon and fuck the broken AC, but anyways I ended up cutting more
On my fucking leg
Like, right below where most of my shorts end, so I guess no more shorts for a while
I wrapped a stupid black t-shirt I don't ever wear around my leg because a couple of them won't stop bleeding and holyyy shit does it hurt wtf
Why can't I be a normal person who gets a good night sleep so they can wake up fresh and renewed in the morning to try and have a better day and fix their mental health issues and be a good son/brother/grandson/coworker, and not a selfish fuck up that cuts themselves in the bathroom at 4:30am and will be a grouchy fuck in the morning. My poor family. My mom and sibling are good people and they have to deal with me. It's no wonder my mom resents me and my sibling doesn't like me, I'm basically a prison sentence in human form. I can't even tolerate myself idk how the fuck they do it
Honestly I should just delete my MPA account, I don't deserve this website either, or anywhere to say my thoughts at all tbh
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Posted 19 July 2022 - 07:51 AM
I know there's not a lot to be said that will change how you feel about yourself right now, but I just wanted to say that you don't deserve to hurt yourself. It's something that's very addictive and normally a form of punishment or relief from what you're feeling. Please try and be gentle with yourself. One thing that helped me stop cutting was the notion that I'd never do that to the child version of me. I wouldn't dare. Child you went through all of the things you've been through in your life to get you to where you are now, and I guarantee he didn't deserve any of it. Your inner child is a huge part of you. I hope that doesn't sound wishywashy or like bullshit, but it really helped me have a little more self-compassion at a time where the person I hated the most in the world was myself.
Everytime I pictured harming her, it broke my heart. She went through too much hurt by other people's hands just for me to turn around and hurt her too.
I know it's a behaviour that can spiral very out of control when you do it after a long time away from it, so please just try and take it easy for now and accept that even though you can't take it back, it doesn't have to mean anything more than what it was. You're going through a fucking hard time man, and you thought you could satisfy the craving and feel a little better. It doesn't have to become a regular thing, and for what it's worth from a stranger online, I don't want you stuck in that cycle. Shits hard enough with an ED, just harm reduce where you can. If you need anything, my inbox is always open.
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Posted 19 July 2022 - 05:45 PM
(I'm also very aware it might have been rude for me to rock up on your accountability thread with a bunch of unsolicited advice, so if you'd like me to replace the previous post and this one with like a rickroll video or some shit of your choice, please do tell me)
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(I'm also very aware it might have been rude for me to rock up on your accountability thread with a bunch of unsolicited advice, so if you'd like me to replace the previous post and this one with like a rickroll video or some shit of your choice, please do tell me)
No! I'm so sorry if I gave that impression! In all honesty I just fucking suck at replying to people when they're giving me advice or saying really nice things, I feel anxious about saying the wrong thing and seeming ungrateful or rude and I never want to come across that way, so often I put off responding to people and then never end up responding at all
I really appreciate everything you said, and seriously, it's hard for me to comprehend that a stranger on the internet could care about me enough to be so nice. Seriously, you are such a cool and kind person Eden <3 I'm doing a little better today, thankfully. I'm trying really hard not to fall into that cycle, hopefully I can stay out of it for a while. My longest clean streak was for a year (out of six years of self harming, that's not bad imo), and I really want to beat that someday.- distortion and ๏ผฅ๏ฝ ๏ฝ๏ฝ๏ฝ ☽ ๏ผฌ๏ฝ๏ฝ๏ฝ ๏ฝ๏ฝ๏ฝ ๏ฝ like this
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The whole moving platforms thing is kinda weirding me out ngl, I'm considering taking a break and coming back when the move is over and maybe (yes, for the umpteenth time) making a new accountability
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No! I'm so sorry if I gave that impression! In all honesty I just fucking suck at replying to people when they're giving me advice or saying really nice things, I feel anxious about saying the wrong thing and seeming ungrateful or rude and I never want to come across that way, so often I put off responding to people and then never end up responding at all
Oh god no, please don't worry that I think you're rude or ungrateful! I suck absolute ASS at replying to people I know in my personal life, let alone people I've never met. It's totally understandable and you're never expected to reply. If I'm posting on your thread, it's to help, not for a response. I just wanted to make sure that you were ok/comfortable with what I was saying to you, especially with having posted it on your thread instead of messaging you directly.
You're so sweet, thank you! I'm glad you're doing a bit better today. A year clean is amazing. You can definitely build on that over time. I remember the first time I managed to limit my cutting to 4 times in one week. That was huge to manage that for just one week, and I had no idea how on earth I would keep it up, let alone reduce it further. Now I've been clean for around 3 years (with the exception of a slip up this year, but I managed to not relapse back into the habit). It takes time - but you're strong, and you can do hard things. A saying that has always stuck with me when trying to do anything hard in my life is the following:
Failure is an opportunity to learn, and learning is an opportunity to progress
With each setback, you have the opportunity to grow stronger and better your chances of success next time around. If beating this someday is something you want, I promise you it's possible. And I promise that's it for the preachy posts for now, but keep making those efforts to look after yourself! You're doing better than you think.
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Anyways, I think I'm gonna take a break for a bit after all, and come back after the forum has moved. I'll make a new accountability then, but for now, I'm going to leave this one behind in old MPA-land. I hope everything goes smoothly, and unless some life-shattering event happens in my life before the 25th, I'll see you all on the other side!
And if I don't, thank you to everyone who's been reading my bullshit and been a friend. Angel (I'll always think of you as Flan or Flower tho), Aspen/Melt Your Headaches, Bleak, Flutter, backwhereibegan, Iruna/Hope, Kittenish/Makima, Eden, Dis, Ben and Nana if you guys read this, and everyone else. Seriously, you guys rock. Love you all
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Hope to see you soon, my friend. <3
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i hope u do comeback!
H: 5'7.5 LW: 150 (2014) SW: 158 (2014) HW: 216 (Dec. 2019..that's embarrassing) CW: ?
Gw 1: 190 lbs (86 kg) BMI - 29.3
Gw 2: 180 lbs (82 kg) BMI - 27.8
Gw 3: 170 lbs (77 kg) BMI - 26.2
Gw 4: 160 lbs (73 kg) BMI - 24.7
Gw 5: 150 lbs (68 kg) BMI - 23.1
Gw 6: 140 lbs (64 kg) BMI - 21.6
Gw 7: 130 lbs (59 kg) BMI - 20.1
Gw 8: 120 lbs (54 kg) BMI - 18.5
♥ UGW: 114 lbs(51 kg) BMI - 17.6 ♥
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Salad - 310
3 Pieces of gum - 15
Fruit snacks - 80
Soup - 440
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In lieu of cutting, I've gotten back into knitting, and it's actually worked pretty well. I haven't self harmed at all in the past two days, but I have knit like 4 inches of the Celtic blanket I started a while back.
Also I way underestimated how much my tolerance would lower after just three days of not taking any hydrocodone. I got sick on 10mg.
Haven't been able to sleep hardly at all the past few days either. I think it's because of three main reasons; 1, I legitimately think a few pieces of cardboard stacked on top of each other would be more comfortable than my damn futon. 2, I have a serious phobia of bugs, and the fuckers will not leave me alone (there was a baby spider on my nightstand like an hour ago and I wanted to cry), so my sleep is periodically interrupted by subconsciously waking up to make sure my blanket isn't touching the floor so no bugs can crawl on it (stupid, I know, but idk what to say). 3, I am very, very depressed still, and it takes me a long time to even fall asleep because I can't stop thinking about shit, and then I have disturbing ass dreams when I do. So that's fun.
If I can't sleep again I'll take a friggin hydrocodone, because I will probably pass out tomorrow if I don't get at least four hours of straight sleep tonight. At least I got an hour nap in today after the 10mg wore off and I fell asleep at my desk, lol.
Oh, also I took two short walks today. The first one was in the middle of the day when it was blazing hot, so that wasn't fun. The second was right after I woke up from my nap, so I was pretty groggy, but omfg, the sky was absolutely stunning this evening.
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Height: 5'5.5" / 65.5in / 166cm
HW: 157lbs / 71kg / BMI 25.7
LW: 145lbs / 65kg / BMI 23.8
SW: 149lbs / 67kg / BMI 24.4
CW: 145lbs / 65kg / BMI 23.8
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GW1: 145lbs / 65kg / BMI 23.8
GW2: 140lbs / 63kg / BMI 22.9
GW3: 135lbs / 61kg / BMI 22.1
GW4: 130lbs / 59kg / BMI 21.3
GW5: 125lbs / 56kg / BMI 20.5
GW6: 120lbs / 54kg / BMI 19.7
GW7: 115lbs / 52kg / BMI 18.8
GW8: 110lbs / 49kg / BMI 18.0
UGW: 105lbs / 47kg / BMI 17.2
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Posted 12 July 2022 - 01:20 AM
oh totally relate with the bugs :|
ive been finding so many around my room lately its getting kinda concerning. ive been going through my drawers cleaning them out, and examining all the objects around my room to check for an "infestation".
(i havent worked myself up enough to tear my bed apart yet, but im getting pretty close. im even more terrified to check under my bed cuz i havent thoroughly cleaned underneath in ages)
i know logically its probably cuz my window is open 24/7 and the bugs are small enough im pretty sure they can fit in that way. its still freaking me out though and sometimes i have to get up at 3am just to clean my room for peace of mind.
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JustCICO / Losertown activity level?
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Posted 07 June 2022 - 05:02 AM
I know they aren't too accurate but I like to keep them as reference anyway.
But I'm having a problem, since I stopped exercising I don't know what to put in on activity.
I am not sedentary. I walk 30 - 45 000 steps a day at a fairly high speed, but that only burns 600 - 850 calories a day where a workout would burn more.
thoughts? should I just press 3 times a week or do I have to go with sedentary?
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Posted 07 June 2022 - 05:15 AM
Definitely not sedentary. I'd recommend getting the Pacer app for a rough estimation, as it will tell you the activity level based on the number of steps you’re getting in.
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I'd prefer to keep using my smart band for counting steps & calories rather than use a new app... is there any other way?
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