✿Towards that Epic Boat Trip in September (oh, and being underweight) ✿ [50 kg --> 44 kg] [5'1.5'']

Started by Stravinsk-eat, Jun 15 2022 03:30 AM

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#61 Stravinsk-eat

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Posted 13 July 2022 - 08:25 AM

Well whoop whoop I actually weighted myself at work after drinking coffee, a little bit of breakfast and then going to the bathroom ~~a lot~~, and the precision scale at work (our nutritionists use it) said 47.3! So I reached a new LW for this diet, and BMI 19.4. I'm so happy I don't even feel guilty about eating a very big and kinda junky lunch. If I stay in the deficit, I'll keep losing, I'm sure of it. The trend is that of a deficit, even if weight loss isn't linear.

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Posted 14 July 2022 - 02:35 AM

13th of July, 2022 Food&Mood Log

Breakfast: coffee (30), a bit of rice porridge (100)

Lunch: went out, got: half of an eggs benedict; half of a french toast w/ lotus spread (to die for) (800)

Dinner: some grapes (100)

Total: 1070 calories

Activity: went for a 45 min. run/walk, cal burned: 450

Week workout: 3/7 days

Mood: I'm happy because yesterday I finally had a free meal that I enjoyed and almost felt no guilt at all - and this morning I checked and I actually didn't put on weight (I was 104,8 lbs, even before bm, so I think I'm actually lower than yesterday? I somehow feel that), so I was able to enjoy delicious food without binging or having repercussions.

I hope I'll get to 103 lbs by this weekend, but my period is indeed about to come up, so who knows when I'll bloat?? Will my period come at all??

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Posted 14 July 2022 - 02:51 AM

Delicious food of the last 3 days (unpictured liters of coffee)

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Posted 15 July 2022 - 03:28 AM

15th of july, 2022

Weight-in: 105,1 lbs (ew, period bloating)

14th of July, 2022 Food&Mood Log

Mood: eeeh, I guess I'm in a plateau... this morning my scale wasn't sure wether I was 47.3 or 47.7 but the second number came up way more so I guess I'm not losing these days... can I call it plateau if it's stuck since two weeks? Even if I did lose something earlier, but then I took it back. I am having my period starting today, so it could be bloating after all, because I don't feel like I've gained fat at all, on the contrary, I've been working out like crazy the past 2 weeks.

In any case, I'm not gonna weight myself until period finishes. So I think monday or tuesday will be the next weight-in. My period usually lasts 3 days.

Breakfast: coffee (22)

Lunch: quinoa w/veggies, mozzarella and 2 falafel (255)

Snack: yoghurt w/ buckwheat cereal and seeds (180), coffee (20)

Dinner: tomato rice soup + 2 mini pizza rolls (292)

Total: 769 calories

Deficit: 1800 - 769 = 1131 calories deficit

Activity: 40 min. helliptical machine, 20 min. yoga&stretching

Week workout: 4/7 days working out

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Posted 16 July 2022 - 12:54 AM

16th of July, 2022

Weight-in: N/A

15th of july, 2022 Food&Mood Log
Breakfast: coffee (20) + rice pudding with pb (260)

Lunch: spicy ttoppoki w/veggies and 1 boiled egg (330)
Snack: cappuccino, pizza, crackers (410)

Dinner: spicy ttoppoki (370), mini-binge with chips (300) and protein chocolate mousse w/ muesli and pb (250)

Grand total: 1940 calories (kind of a little above my TDEE)

Activity: So I drove for like 3 hr under the burning sun of like 50 degrees celsius and did some morning commissions. Otherwise, no workout.

Week workout: 4/7 days workout

Mood: period binge happened. Well, at least it was contained, but I had terrible stomach cramps. Actually yesterday I was kinda triggered by something I read about how low restriction really, really hurts your health (under 1000 calories), so I might try to up my calories and see if I still lose for the next few weeks - my GW has to be hit by September, so I do have about 50 days more, I shouldn't really rush, or anything. I can lose as little as 1 lb every 10 days, and I'll be fine. I still have to weight myself daily though, as soon as period is gone and period cravings and bloating is gone.

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Posted Yesterday, 02:31 AM

17th of July, 2022

Weight-in: N/A (3rd period day, almost over)

16th of July, 2022 Food&Mood Log
Breakfast: coffee (10)
Lunch: pumpkin rice, protein choc yog (400)
Snack: cappuccino (60) and yoghurt (200)
Dinner: green veggies w/ quinoa, ricotta and parmesan cheese (400)

Total: 1070 calories

Activity: I just did some abs and legs exercises while sitting down at my desk lol.

Week workout: 4/7 days working out

Mood: well obviously I'm not happy about not being able to weight with my period but I just don't wanna see that high number.

I don't want to see 105 lbs on the scale anymore. I have to reach 103 soon, already staying in the 104's is becoming hard!!
I hope upping my calories won't be a problem... tonight I'm gonna go for a run, eat 1000 calories again and tomorrow we'll see if I'm still bloated or the period bloat will be gone.

Technically, Tuesday will be day 40 since the start of my diet, so I really really wanted to be 46.9 kg by then (103,3 lbs), but even if I'm 103,9 or a little lower I'd be glad.

Also, I'm probably gonna open up a thread but: how do you guys deal with water/literal water weight? I don't mean water retention, I mean drinking water and then having that water in your system while you weight. Like, should I stop drinking water in the evening to avoid having water weight the morning after? How much should I drink to avoid water retention? I think I'm drinking about 1,5 LT of water every day these days, so I shouldn't have a lot of water retention, but I'm worried I literally have too much water inside me in the morning for the weight-in. Am I crazy?

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#67 1994kg

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Posted Yesterday, 10:40 PM

You're doing so awesome!! I'm hoping a whoosh comes your way soon~

And I like to drink at least 70oz of water a day, but I tend to sip less at night time since I weigh myself in the morning! I definitely see a huge difference in weight loss if I sleep in more and use the bathroom before weighing myself.

At the same time, I'm scared of water retention if I don't drink enough water lol I'm hoping that drinking enough water during the day is enough to help?? I'm curious to see what others say!

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#68 Stravinsk-eat

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Posted Today, 12:38 AM

1994kg, on 17 Jul 2022 - 10:40 PM, said:

You're doing so awesome!! I'm hoping a whoosh comes your way soon~

And I like to drink at least 70oz of water a day, but I tend to sip less at night time since I weigh myself in the morning! I definitely see a huge difference in weight loss if I sleep in more and use the bathroom before weighing myself.
At the same time, I'm scared of water retention if I don't drink enough water lol I'm hoping that drinking enough water during the day is enough to help?? I'm curious to see what others say!

Yes I should try to do like you because... I feel like I'm not at my emptiest in the morning when I weight and it feels terrible because I don't trust the number I see on the scale. I drink a lot in the evening because usually I take my integrators before going to sleep - metalonin, zinc, magnesium, fibre-pills for bm and sometimes carnitine. I'm thinking about taking most of them in the morning and only leaving the melatonin at night... for obvious reasons.

I'm hoping in a whoosh as well... I'm stuck since before my period!! Today I weighted myselfand the scale said 105,6, but then again, it was before going bm and yesterday evening I drank lots of water... and I didn't sleep in a lot and I did't pee a lot on in the morning so I just know those 400-500 ml of water I drank before going to bed were still there.

I guess the good part is I'm still BMI 19 so I guess I can handle being at this weight for a little bit more... but I feel like I'm doing something wrong and I don't know what. The deficit is huge, the workout is legit (but I could do more I think, yesterday I didn't go for a run), I'm not constipated but I guess today would be day 4 of period so... maybe it's still because of that. The period per-se has already stopped because mine never lasts more than 3 days, but probably today's gonna be spotting and stuff, so... fuck, I don't know. I'm pretty mad about it because I don't dislike myself in the mirror? I feel myself getting thinner? I don't get it.

17th of July, 2022
Food Log

Breakfast: coffee (25)

Lunch: veggies with quinoa, smoked salmon and tomatoes (350)

Snack: watermelon + coffee (125), protein chocolate mousse (150)

Dinner: cous cous w/ veggies (375)

Total: 975 calories

Deficit: 1800 - 975 = 875 calories

Activity: did a light walk with bf, then did some abs workout on the parallels and I tried a couple of pull ups which were half a fail lol. Also did like 15 minutes of stretching and yoga.

Mood: as written above, I don't feel good about my progress. Also, yesterday I was cyberbullied on IG because of my ED, lol. Someone told me I shouldn't say I'm an "expert" in phsychotherapy and phsychology because it's obvious I have an ED and I'm obsessed with food and my own body. Which was all kinds of ridiculous because A., I never said I am an expert in such subjects, I only said I'm passionate about it and would like to study to become a professional, and B, my food and selfie content is like the same as any IG blogger, the only difference is that I'm transparent about my past and present struggles to recover from ED - which has actually kind of worked because I'm not starving as much as before, I'm not overexercising, I'm not c/spitting, I'm not self harming, and the list goes on. So - the cyber hater can go fuck themselves.