✿Towards that Epic Boat Trip in September (oh, and being underweight) ✿ [50 kg --> 44 kg] [5'1.5'']
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Posted 30 June 2022 - 09:55 AM
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CW: 104,2 lbs / 47.3 kg
CBMI: 19.4
LW: 96 lbs / 43 kg
HW: 120 lbs / 54 kg
Height: 5'1.5'' (156 cm)
GW: BMI 18, officially 'skinny' according to "most people"
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Posted 30 June 2022 - 11:55 PM
July 1st, 2022
Weight-in: 108,2 lbs (- 0,2) (w/out bm)
June 30th, 2022 Food Log
Breakfast: coffee (30)
Lunch: rice salad w/ a bunch of weighted stuff (ext. 350 cals)
Snack: coffee (30)
Dinner: corn, surimi, boiled egg (mushed all together in a delicious salad) and watermelon (300)
Total: 710 calories for the day (low res. day)
Activity: I just went out of the house for the first time since covid lol
Mood: I'm negative! Which means that from today I will start working again - it's nice because at work at least there is air conditioned and I'm not gonna die with the hot weather at home. Also, nice because if I'm at work it's waaaay easier to restrict. Also, not nice because at work there are so many triggering things I can't even start with you guys.
One important thing is that even if I have had covid, I still have scheduled for the 10th (so 9 days from now) a concert in which I will be playing violin and singing with a partner that's going to play the piano and sing. Since it's only gonna be the two of us, I feel like I would feel the most comfortable at a lower weight for the concert... at least 47.5 kg. So, I will keep my restriction lower than 1000 calories and try to work out as much as possible to lose about 1 lb every 2 days.
So it should look a little bit like this:
2/7: 107 lbs
4/7: 106 lbs
6/7: 105 lbs
8/7: 104 lbs
10/7: 104 or lower
So that's my plan for the next week!
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CW: 104,2 lbs / 47.3 kg
CBMI: 19.4
LW: 96 lbs / 43 kg
HW: 120 lbs / 54 kg
Height: 5'1.5'' (156 cm)
GW: BMI 18, officially 'skinny' according to "most people"
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Posted 01 July 2022 - 01:26 PM
July 1st, 2022, Food Log
Breakfast: coffee (60) + protein yog with blueberries (70)
Lunch: leftover rice and salmon with carrots and corn (150, the rice was really about a tablespoon)
Dinner: Bell peppers, feta cheese (left some), watermelon (170)
Snackie thingie which was kinda disappointing: buckwheat cereal, milk, milk chocolate and pb (200) first warmed up and then frozen because I create the worse recipes during my relapses
Total: 660 calories
Activity&mood: I went to work, then I did a test drive for my driver's license on the motorcycle.. it was all very tiring because I only slept 5 hours, but I don't think I've burned that much, so tonight I did a little bit of pilates and I don't know if it was a particularily hard workout, but I felt like I had zero energies. Probably it's the low calories, it's starting to have an effect already. Oh well at least tomorrow is work free! Oh, I also had sex for about 30 minutes? That counts as workout, right?
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CW: 104,2 lbs / 47.3 kg
CBMI: 19.4
LW: 96 lbs / 43 kg
HW: 120 lbs / 54 kg
Height: 5'1.5'' (156 cm)
GW: BMI 18, officially 'skinny' according to "most people"
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Posted 03 July 2022 - 05:38 AM
July 2nd, 2022, Food Log
Weight-in: 108,0 lbs (-0,2)
Breakfast: coffee (50)
Lunch: asian veggie & tofu soup thingie (200, split with bf)
Snack: chocolate, crackers and blueberries (100)
Dinner: 1 slice of pizza, half a chicken wrap, slice of cheesecake, pork (1000-1500? not really sure)
Activity: still zero lol I haven't been able to go back to working out since covid... I'll try hard the next few days before the concert.
Mood: obviously, the dinner wasn't planned... but I tried hard and managed not to get too upset about it. I didn't really even enjoy 100% the food we bought and ate but at least it was energy, lol. Restricting below 1000 always makes me feel like shit, so I don't regret the dinner too much. Also, I took a bunch of fiber pills to better get rid of the food weight and today I don't feel too bloated, so I guess they did some good!
Maybe my plan to reach 47.5 kg for the concert will not succeed... I really just hope to reach 105 lbs by the 10th, so I still have 7 days to do it - gonna work hard for it!
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CW: 104,2 lbs / 47.3 kg
CBMI: 19.4
LW: 96 lbs / 43 kg
HW: 120 lbs / 54 kg
Height: 5'1.5'' (156 cm)
GW: BMI 18, officially 'skinny' according to "most people"
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Posted 03 July 2022 - 05:44 AM
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CW: 104,2 lbs / 47.3 kg
CBMI: 19.4
LW: 96 lbs / 43 kg
HW: 120 lbs / 54 kg
Height: 5'1.5'' (156 cm)
GW: BMI 18, officially 'skinny' according to "most people"
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Posted 04 July 2022 - 12:45 AM
July 4th, 2022
Weight-in: 107 lbs (-1 lb)
almost at the before covid weight and -2 lbs for my GW for the 10th!!
July 3rd, 2022 Food'n mood Log
Breakfast: coffee (70)
Lunch: veggie burger, veggies (280)
Snack: another coffee (40) (what do you mean coffee isn't food??)
Dinner: cherries (60)
Total: 450
Activity: we went at the beach with my bf!! And we 1) swimmed a little bit in the fresh water and 2) Played beach volley with other people at the beach for 2 hours!! I was so happy to be finally moving a little bit, also the sea air was so good for my post-covid, stuffy nose.
Mood: I believe that it was thanks to the activity yesterday and the heavy restriction that I managed to drop a whole lb in a day. I'm very happy and hopeful for the 10th. Definitely aiming to reach 46 kg or 102lbs (BMI 18.9 hello???) by the end of July. I would celebrate the heck out of that GW.
But also, the fact that I didn't gain weight from the other day's dinner with pizza and dessert, made me think that I should keep one day per week above 1000 calories, both for a phsychological and physical benefit. It won't make me gain real weight, and it will help long term.
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CW: 104,2 lbs / 47.3 kg
CBMI: 19.4
LW: 96 lbs / 43 kg
HW: 120 lbs / 54 kg
Height: 5'1.5'' (156 cm)
GW: BMI 18, officially 'skinny' according to "most people"
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Posted 05 July 2022 - 12:30 AM
5th of July, 2022
Weight-in at: 106,2 lbs (- 0,8 lbs) / 48,1 kg
BMI: 19.7 <3
4th of July, 2022 Food&Mood log
Breakfast: coffee (35) and rice pudding w/ added flax (235)
Lunch: 2 hot wings w/ketchup, watermelon (230)
Snack: coffee and blueberries (30)
Dinner: surimi salad w/peas and mayo and a peach after (250)
Total: 780 calories
Activity: 20 min. helliptical machine + 25 minutes yoga&stretching
Mood: I'm definitely very happy that I'm losing a little bit everyday, it means that i didn't gain any real fat/weight during the covid binge days obviously... at 48.1 kg, that puts my BMI at 19.7 which is a number that I totally like!! Also, really really want to break the 47 barrier tomorrow. If I indeed reach 105, I will be completely in time with my plan for the 10th. That gives me a sense of security and control that I really, really enjoy and I missed a lot... because I don't really control a lot of my life (I do a job that I don't like, I don't have enough money to do anything much), so at least I have this.
Also, the scale was fucking up the numbers multiple times this morning. First it said 104,4 (which was ridicule and false), then it said 106,2 and then 105,8, then I switched to kg and said 48,1, so I'll stick with the highest to be safe. Excited!!
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CW: 104,2 lbs / 47.3 kg
CBMI: 19.4
LW: 96 lbs / 43 kg
HW: 120 lbs / 54 kg
Height: 5'1.5'' (156 cm)
GW: BMI 18, officially 'skinny' according to "most people"
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Posted 05 July 2022 - 07:15 AM
Omg I did a weight-in after work because I peed a lot and it said 105,2 lbs... I hope it will be confirmed tomorrow morning, it will mean I managed to lose 5 lbs in a little over a week?? LOL.
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CW: 104,2 lbs / 47.3 kg
CBMI: 19.4
LW: 96 lbs / 43 kg
HW: 120 lbs / 54 kg
Height: 5'1.5'' (156 cm)
GW: BMI 18, officially 'skinny' according to "most people"
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Posted 06 July 2022 - 12:21 AM
6th of July, 2022
Weight-in at: 105,6 lbs (-0,6 lbs) / 47.8 kg
BMI: 19.6
(Next GW by the end of July: 46.1 kg, BMI: 18.9
5th of July, 2022 Food&Mood Log
Breakfast: cappuccino and yoghurt frozen weird creation of mine w/flaxseed and oats (195)
Lunch: one slice of pizza (230) plus veggies (100)
Snack: green tea (30), apple pie yoghurt (150)
Dinner: veggies w/ tofu and soy sauce and egg white scramble (200)
Total: 905 calories
Activity: I did 40 minutes walking&running and then 15 minutes of yoga
Mood: yesterday became 'high' restriction because I just couldn't shrug off the hunger I felt after dinner, so I ate that apple pie yoghurt which was... pretty good, but made me very bloated and I was scared that this morning I was gonna gain. Luckily that didn't happen, I was just paranoid! The weight-in this morning confirmed pretty much the second weight-in I did yesterday afternoon w/ an empty stomach and after bm. It was so hot while I was running but I managed to do a complete hour or so, and while I was running I was listening to Next to Normal musical and trying not to cry in the park in front of everyone LOL. What a musical.
I feel pretty good about being in the 47's and I do feel a little bit more confident, the problem is that people at work don't really seem to notice it or they don't care... which in my ED brain means that obviously I haven't lost enough.
Gonna post some pics of latest food and I'm also thinking about opening a body checks thread on the Selfies section of the site! Cause I haven't really been able to see much difference on my body from when I was 3 kg heavier..
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CW: 104,2 lbs / 47.3 kg
CBMI: 19.4
LW: 96 lbs / 43 kg
HW: 120 lbs / 54 kg
Height: 5'1.5'' (156 cm)
GW: BMI 18, officially 'skinny' according to "most people"
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Posted 06 July 2022 - 03:42 AM
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CW: 104,2 lbs / 47.3 kg
CBMI: 19.4
LW: 96 lbs / 43 kg
HW: 120 lbs / 54 kg
Height: 5'1.5'' (156 cm)
GW: BMI 18, officially 'skinny' according to "most people"
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Posted 07 July 2022 - 01:11 AM
7th of July, 2022
Weight-in: 105,6 lbs
BMI: 19.6
Lbs lost so far: 4,6 lbs
To lose: 6 lbs
6th of July, 2022 Food&Mood Log:
Breakfast: coffee (30)
Lunch: veggies (150)
Snacks: yoghurt w/cereal (200), coffee (20), pickles (10)
Dinner: Ice cream at like 5 pm lol (220) and a wafer (50)
Total: 680 calories
Activity: just did a lot of chores, so I walked around 5-6k, but no exercise
Mood: yesterday was a very good day; had a nice, eye-opening therapy session and some conflicts that I felt were adding up inside my heart these past weeks got resolved. Also, a bunch of people commented on my weight (especially, my work boss who told me that it's normal to lose 2 kg per week and that I was getting my diet all wrong). I mean, they don't know how much I weight, they just told me I looked like I lost. I can't wait to get to 45 kg, because then I will be able to tell people the number and I'm sure a lot of them will be shocked - there's a colleague of mine who's much taller than me and underweight (BMI around 17), and she weighs 46 kg, so my goal has overlapped with my desire to weight less than her, although my BMI won't be as low as hers - but she's like 50 years old so it's not like I feel much competitive drive.
Today I maintained but that's okay, I expected my weight to stabilize a bit around this weight especially with the low, low restriction. I might try to do a couple of 1000 cal intake days, and see what happens.
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CW: 104,2 lbs / 47.3 kg
CBMI: 19.4
LW: 96 lbs / 43 kg
HW: 120 lbs / 54 kg
Height: 5'1.5'' (156 cm)
GW: BMI 18, officially 'skinny' according to "most people"
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Posted 08 July 2022 - 12:51 AM
8th of July, 2022
Weight-in: 105,2 lbs (- 0,4 lbs)
BMI: 19.6
Lbs lost so far: 5 lbs
To lose: 6 lbs min.
7th of July, 2022 Food&Mood Log:
Breakfast: coffee (30) + cake mug w/egg whites (170)
Lunch: ravioli w/ salmon and zucchini (350)
Snacks: soy cappuccino (80), almond cookie (40)
Dinner: Chocolaty rice pudding thingie I cooked (300)
Total: 970 calories
Activity: 1 hr between walking, running and some abs workout at the park. There was a storm so it was pretty chilly. Super!
Calories burned: 385
Mood: Although I upped my intake I still lost, so I'm very very happy! It's not that I totally let myself go obviously... I still portioned everything and I didn't have alot of anxiety going close to 1000 calories, cause I was repeating to myself in my mind that it's for the best. And I was right! I still have between tomorrow and Sunday to reach 104, so today I'll try working out a little bit more and saturday too... and sunday, concert time!
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CW: 104,2 lbs / 47.3 kg
CBMI: 19.4
LW: 96 lbs / 43 kg
HW: 120 lbs / 54 kg
Height: 5'1.5'' (156 cm)
GW: BMI 18, officially 'skinny' according to "most people"
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Posted 08 July 2022 - 03:48 AM
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CW: 104,2 lbs / 47.3 kg
CBMI: 19.4
LW: 96 lbs / 43 kg
HW: 120 lbs / 54 kg
Height: 5'1.5'' (156 cm)
GW: BMI 18, officially 'skinny' according to "most people"
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Posted 08 July 2022 - 11:39 PM
9th of July, 2022
Weight-in: 105,4 lbs (-+0,2 lbs)
BMI: 19.6
Lbs lost so far: 4,8 lbs
To lose: 6 lbs min.
8th of July, 2022 Food&Mood Log:
Breakfast: coffee (30) + porridge (160)
Lunch: sandwhich w/ham tomato and mayo + salad (270)
Snacks: blackberries (40), matcha latte, choc chips (100)
Dinner: Tomato rice soup (delish) (240)
Total: 850 calories
Activity: Did 23 minutes cycling and 18 minutes helliptical machine, plus some stretching. Tried to push past feeling tired as fuck cause I worked out after my work shift and I don't think I slept very good for two days in a row.
Week workout: 4 out of /7 days
Calories burned: 344
Mood: Well, I gained a couple lbs but that's hardly a thing to obsess about... I'm still maintaining 47 kg and that's the important thing. I do hope to reach 104 tomorrow but, if it doesn't happen I'm not gonna let myself be triggered. Although, last week on saturday I did have a free meal so I'm planning to have that after the concert, probably on monday or something! Maybe that will give my metabolism a lil' push, a little boost lol.
Tomorrow before the concert I'm planning on keeping my intake low and swimming a lot. the concert is at the beach in the evening, so I was planning on bathing and tanning all day, and then getting ready to play during the afternoon. Might share a selfie in costume if body dysphoria will let me like myself LOL.
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CW: 104,2 lbs / 47.3 kg
CBMI: 19.4
LW: 96 lbs / 43 kg
HW: 120 lbs / 54 kg
Height: 5'1.5'' (156 cm)
GW: BMI 18, officially 'skinny' according to "most people"
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Posted 10 July 2022 - 01:38 AM
10th of July, 2022
Weight-in: 104,6 lbs (-0,8 lbs) 
BMI: 19.5
Lbs lost so far: 5,6 lbs
1st GW: 101,4 lbs / 45,9 kg (lowest weight since 2016)
Lbs to lose: 3,2 lbs
9th of July, 2022 Food&Mood Log:
Breakfast: coffee (30) + porridge (100)
Lunch: chips, sandwiches w.ham and cheese, egg salad (430)
Dinner: Binged on: extremely spicy, cheesy ttoppoki, chips from lunch, leftover porridge w/ nutella and pb, unfinished basically everything (1000?)
Total: 1500 calories (estimated)
Activity: Only did some walking, some motorcycle driving and some light leg and abs exerciseson the couch before having binge urges lol.
Week workout: 4 out of /7 days
Mood: Well basically, you'll ask yourself: how did I lose weight while binging last night?? very simple: the ttoppoki was so spicy it messed up with my stomach and intestines right away, so I spent all the evening in the toilet, basically. Not gonna go into details but I'm positive that I didn't absorb not even half of those binge calories, thank the Allmighty! It was painful as fuck, though. 6/10, would not repeat, if only of the weight loss.
On another note: I reached 104! Yay!! I'm so happy even though the way I reached the weight was definitely unexpected, lol. Basically yesterday I planned an OMAD and of course that triggered a binge. Not gonna plan OMAD anymore for now.
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CW: 104,2 lbs / 47.3 kg
CBMI: 19.4
LW: 96 lbs / 43 kg
HW: 120 lbs / 54 kg
Height: 5'1.5'' (156 cm)
GW: BMI 18, officially 'skinny' according to "most people"
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Posted 10 July 2022 - 04:38 AM
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CW: 104,2 lbs / 47.3 kg
CBMI: 19.4
LW: 96 lbs / 43 kg
HW: 120 lbs / 54 kg
Height: 5'1.5'' (156 cm)
GW: BMI 18, officially 'skinny' according to "most people"
Psychotherapy saved my life but eating healthy is fucking harder than human interaction
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114 113 112
111 110 109
108 107 106
105 104 103
102 101 100 ---> Most Important Goal Weight
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Posted 11 July 2022 - 12:16 AM
10th of July, 2022 Food&Mood Log
Breakfast: milk & cereal (160), coffee (20)
Lunch: veggies, squid w/protein bread (est. 300)
Snacks: nachos w/guac, fruit drink (150)
Dinner: leftover squid w/ protein bread, some bites of pasta (400)
Total: 1030 calories (all estimated)
Activity: I went to the beach, I walked in the water a bit, I played a bit on the beach, I burned off some calories for the stress of playing in front of people lol.
Workout: 4/7 days of the week
Mood: the concert was fine! So that's that. I was very happy about that and was also happy about reaching 104 lbs.
Actually I didn't weight myself this morning becauseI felt bloated last evening and this morning too, so I'm going to wait for it to pass.
I have to drink more water today and lower my intake because I feel like yesterday I may have underestimated the calories (because I didn't cook the food, so I have no idea).
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CW: 104,2 lbs / 47.3 kg
CBMI: 19.4
LW: 96 lbs / 43 kg
HW: 120 lbs / 54 kg
Height: 5'1.5'' (156 cm)
GW: BMI 18, officially 'skinny' according to "most people"
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105 104 103
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Posted 11 July 2022 - 10:53 AM
Congratulations on reaching your goal!
Also, glad you enjoyed the concert!
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Posted 12 July 2022 - 12:39 AM
stressnh0pe, on 11 Jul 2022 - 10:53 AM, said:
Congratulations on reaching your goal!
Also, glad you enjoyed the concert!
Thanks! Of course now I'm already bored with it (the weight) so I'm getting impatient about dropping again lol. There's such an addictive feeling to seeing the number go down, I always miss it when I don't diet.
12th of July, 2022
Weight-in
104,6 lbs
(same from sunday, but glad the weight gain from yesterday was a fluke and was just bloating)
BMI: 19.5
1st GW: 101,4 lbs / 45,9 kg (lowest weight since 2016)
Lbs to lose: 3,2 lbs
Notes: my period should be coming, so I was tempted not to weight myself during period days because I really really don't wanna see my weight soar and go back to 48 kg/BMI 20.
11th of July, 2022 Food&Mood Log:
Breakfast: coffee (30)
Lunch: homemade (by me) salted crèpes w/salmon, grilled mushrooms, veggies and some light cream cheese (I ate two crepes) (400)
Snack: coffee (30) and tea
Dinner: another two crèpes, this time sweet, one with jam and blackberries and the other with pb and choc chips (360)
Total calories in: 820
Activity: did 1 hr. of kickboxing warm up at my gym - was a killer. about 500 calories burned.
I don't know how I survived doing that with that calorie deficit lol (TDEE being about 1800).
Instructor was merciless. I liked it lol.
There were 2 girls who were pretty thin, one in particular had a lower BMI than me for sure, while there were two other girls who were pretty big but not too much, in an ugly way. Actually, since I was the shortest, I probably was the one who weighted less and I looked at myself in the mirror and was weirded out: all my top, my shoulders and my chest looked super bony, while my thighs and ass was so round and fat?? Incredible lol.
Week workout: 1/7 days
Mood: yesterday I was a little bummed out because of the bloating but I resisted and still restricted a lot, so I'm glad. My period has to come, thus the bloating. It should come today or tomorrow, I wonder how it will go since I've been restricting like crazy this past month... probably it will be short and painful as per usual.
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CW: 104,2 lbs / 47.3 kg
CBMI: 19.4
LW: 96 lbs / 43 kg
HW: 120 lbs / 54 kg
Height: 5'1.5'' (156 cm)
GW: BMI 18, officially 'skinny' according to "most people"
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Posted 13 July 2022 - 12:11 AM
13th of July, 2022
Weight-in
105,6 lbs
Expected gain because I'm bloated, my period should be coming but I don't have cramps yet, plus I'm constipated lol.
Not gonna weight myself until I go-go. Anyways, it's not fat weight, just food and water weight for sure.
12th of July, 2022 Food&Mood Log:
Breakfast: coffee (20), yoghurt w/jam and cherries (150)
Lunch: crépe (last one lol) w/ mozzarella, njuja and veggies w/mayo, also a bite of rib meat (335)
Snack: coffee w/ sugar and milk (60)
Dinner: cous cous w/ bell pepper and chicken, a bit of light cheese (250), rice pudding (287), some ice cream (200)
Total calories in: 1300 (was so hungry, luckily still under my TDEE by about 500 cals)
Activity: 1 hr. of walking and some running, plus abs on the calisthenics parallels. about 350 calories burned.
Week workout: 2/7 days
Mood: obviously not happy about the bloating or the apparent gain, but I'm still trusting my diet and especially the fact that I've been working out pretty constantly in the last 40 days, so as to not let my metabolism drop.
Yesterday I upped the calories a bit but I'm not too worried about that, I knew I would have to eventually because low restriction causes terrible constipation.
Haven't really slept. Gonna eat in a delicious, American brunch place today with a friend so I'm super happy. Gonna try to balance out the calories by skipping or eating very little for dinner.
Follow my accountability if u like weird Italian food --> here
CW: 104,2 lbs / 47.3 kg
CBMI: 19.4
LW: 96 lbs / 43 kg
HW: 120 lbs / 54 kg
Height: 5'1.5'' (156 cm)
GW: BMI 18, officially 'skinny' according to "most people"
Psychotherapy saved my life but eating healthy is fucking harder than human interaction
120 119 118
117 116 115
114 113 112
111 110 109
108 107 106
105 104 103
102 101 100 ---> Most Important Goal Weight
99 98 97 96 95 --> Forbidden UGW
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